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A poem…

King, wrote me a poem a few hours ago. He’s my ex fours year ago. He knows me well and he definitely feels what I’ve been going through in the past few weeks as a result of my recent break-up. Reposting the poem from his blog:

You left me on the edge of a cold sandy beach
Icy waters greeting my feet
Like the endless tears of pain in hell
You left me on the edge of a cold sandy beachI stand frozen
Looking at the distant memory of you
You kissed me goodbye
And hugged me ’till my tears dry

Waves are coming for me
Piercing wind, scratching my face
Yet I stand there frozen
Looking for you
Waves are coming for me,
yet I stand there frozen,
as tears drown my longing for you.

I walk towards the water
Freezing water, like your heart when you left me.
I walk farther from the shore
Like how I must walk away,
from the memory of you
I drown myself in the deep ocean blue

How I wish I can just drown myself
To feel nothing but the freezing cold
Until my body numbs
Until I can no longer feel…

As I let myself go in the waters that swallowed me
How I wish you could hear my plea
I let go of the future
…and the memories of us.
 Is that we will ever be.

Thank you very much King! I appreacite it so much.
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Another Fresh Wound

Just a few weeks ago, my partner broke up with me but we were able to resolve things and then got together again after a few days.

Just a few hours ago, I can’t believe that this relationship is over. This time, with certain finality. Just when I thought things are falling back into place. Though it was a good break-up, It would be hard for me to face the fact that the person is no longer mine. Everything happened as a series of unfortunate events. First, with a beloved one’s demise, then will my failing health, then my issues in the office and then most recently, this one. I’ve gotta hold on to my faith and keep believing that things will get better soon.

The pain is quite unbearable and the reality’s sinking in now. I gave the best that I could possibly give – my 100%. But I guess that wasn’t enough. I don’t know if I’d get another shot at love. If only it’s possible to bring back time to correct the mistakes I’ve made. Wishful thinking, I’m wishing that someday, that person will come back into my arms but that solely depends on that person now. I’m just hoping that in case that time will come, I’ll still be here to feel and relive the love we’ve had.

 

 

My fairytale story with Papa bear ended up with a not-so-happy ending. I thought it was the start of a happily ever after part but apparently, it was not. Oh well, that’s life.

I have started another chapter of my life almost a month ago. I met this spectacular guy which eventually ended up as my wifey last August 14. Let’s give him the pet name Purr. Purr just like Papa Bear is aware of my status as a pozzie. However, this status doesn’t hold him back on being intimate with me. One of the issues that led to my previous relationship’s failure. It’s not right to compare the current with someone from the past but it’s inevitable. All that I can say is that I’m deeply in love with Purr and that feeling is mutual. I won’t expound on this anymore but I can feel something different compared to my previous relationships. I’m hoping that he’s the one I’m gonna spend the rest of my lifetime with.

A little fact on this love of my life: Purr gives talks on sexuality, gay empowerment, and HIV not just here in the Philippines but even abroad. In fact, he was one of the co-founders of a LGBT organization in our country. He’s just about my age and damn! I’m so impressed with his wit and knowledge. For me, he’s a perfect package.

Before I forget, He just had himself test two weeks ago and he turned out to be non-reactive. Yay!