Tag Archive: finding out

the verdict

I am positive.

No wonder it took so long for my result to come out. The confirmatory result from San Lazaro indicates that I am reactive to HIV 1. I have been preparing for this with the mentality that I am positive until proven negative. and it helped.┬áThe OIC accredited by DOH to give the post-testing counselling session was kinda surprised that I took the result well and applauded me for being strong and intelligent about it (the fact that I know a lot about the disease. Well, I did tons of research about it). She had me sent to their general practitioner to have the endorsement form filled up. After the quick physical exam and some questions, my case is classified as clinically stage two. After the physical, I was told that they’ll text me again once they have already endorsed me to San Lazaro for the census, and lab tests (CD4, Viral load, Opportunistic Diseases, et al).

It’s not the end of the world for me. I’m taking this as another chapter of my life. A new page unfolds and it depends on me how I’m going to write the remaining pages of my life. I have to be positive about it as life goes on.

I took the day off from work after finding out the result. Spent the day with my best friend in Trinoma to talk about my plans, what to do next, and when to tell my parents about it. To somehow distract me from the bitter reality, we had lunch, did some window shopping, watched How to train a Dragon in 3D, and had a few bottles with a kabarda. At the end of the day, I fell asleep with the question, “What’s next?”

I am positive and I WILL BE POSITIVE ABOUT IT.


I’m 25. At the peak of my career.
I am Positive.

I had myself tested for HIV last Monday after the SMS I got from an anonymous texter days prior. After days of paranoia and fear, I went to the laboratory an hour ago to pick-up my test result. I handed over the receipt to the medical technicial and I got an implied affirmation from him, “Oooh. [My Name]. You’re test result is not yet here. You’ve read the note right? You’ll get a call once the result is in.”

My blood sample has been forwarded to the San Lazaro hospital for confirmatory tests. Meaning, my initial lab result is positive. I’ll just have to wait for the call.

Whatever the result will be, I have to be brave and strong in facing the truth. I have to learn to accept and embrace the fact. This is the start of my Life’s journey — not a walk towards the end of my life, but the adventures of living my life to the fullest. Savoring every breath and every moment of my life with the people that matters most to me.

May God help me.