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informing my exes…

I could have done this anonymously but I opted to tell them about my status personally. It was a big risk as I have no idea how they’re going to react upon hearing the news but it is my responsibility to tell the people that have been special in my life about it.

I called the three of them one by one and told them of my situation over the phone. They were shocked knowing that they could have also contacted the virus from me. With maturity, they all accepted the fact given that it was our choice to do the act without protection. I felt guilty about it. They assured me though that I shouldn’t be guilty about it  as it was not my choice to have the virus nor do I have the intention of passing it to them. They’ll still be there for me whatever happens. No regrets, no bitterness. Had quite long discussions with them over the phone with our emotions running. Questions have been asked and have been answered with full honesty.

I advised them to have themselves tested as soon as possible so that they know if they have contacted it from me or not. I’m praying and hoping that in their tests, it’ll turn out non-reactive.

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The result should have been out last Saturday so I was kinda hestitant to push through with the scheduled out-of-town trip with my officemate up north in the city of Pines for the celebrated flower festival. But it later came into me that anticipating so much for the result won’t change the outcome. I decided to take the weekend off, take my mind off the paranoia that I have, and push through with the trip.

And I’m glad I did. I enjoyed the cool weather, the new friends and acquaintances I met, photography — taking snapshots of the festival, the festivities, and my passion — food tripping. But most of all, the best thing is I was able to gain peace of mind being not to think about my current dilemna. Although it pops into my head once in a while, the company that I had turned my depression into laughter — a retreat to solace.

Three days and three nights. Very memorable and fun. But reality bites. Had to go back to the metro, back to the inevitable routines of my life, and embrace the fear that have subsided in the past three days. I”m glad I took that trip. Although sleepless and tiring as it is, I felt refreshed.