Category: Random Stuff


Tarot Reading

My dear ex and friend did some tarot reading for me last night. And here it goes:

“You embarked on a new journey at sa ngayon dumating ka na sa point na nag-c-clash and emotions at logic mo that it is already taking control of you. You are trying to balance both emotions and logic. There are things that you want, but, there are also things that you have been ignoring that you already have. You need to be practical and you need to take control of your emotion and thoughts. rather than them controlling you. That way, you will be able to appreciate more the things you already have. that way, you will be able to take care of yourself more, rather than exerting so much time and energy on things you want as well as your clashing emotions and thoughts. because your thoughts and emotions are what keeps you stuck, right now.”

Doctor Bear…

Last August 14, Purrpz, my partner gave a doctor bear as a monthsary gift — A promise that he will take care of me forever. How sweet. I love you babe.

Another chapter of my life is being written — the story of Papa Smiley Bear and his Baby Bear. I’ve been waiting for this love story for almost two years now and my patience finally paid off. My prince charming has finally come to free me from the bondage of my past. After being chained in the pit of bitterness and despair for months, this knight in the shining armor rescued me and escorted me be back to life. He helped me remember the things that I have forgotten — how to smile and love again.

But not all fairy tales have happy endings. Just as when the handsome prince have finally met his perfect maiden, he has learned that a haunted ghost of the past had cast a spell upon his bride. A curse that would restrain them in the act of manifesting their love for each other. That once broken, it’ll bring demise to his own life. The Prince risked it. At around 4:30 am of June 9, 2010. He uttered the words “I love you” and kissed his maiden. When their lips touched, the fairy godmother dressed in all pink appeared out of nowhere and transformed the Prince and the maiden into bears after the hollywood SFX drama of smoke, glitters, and orchestra music — the Prince as Papa Smiley Bear and the maiden as Baby Bear. And from thereon, they are to take the hurdles of this life in the wilderness and they are to shape their own destiny.

Malabo no? I’m just wasted. Just to cut things short, Rico (not his real name) and I are now officially partners. I call him my Papa Smiley Bear (he smiles a lot and he has this perfect killer smile), and he calls me his Baby bear. That’s it. haha.

weight problem…

This has been a problem that I’ve been facing in the past few years. No matter how voracious my appetite is, I just won’t gain weight. Instead, I keep on getting leaner and leaner. Years ago, I’ve been attributing this to my metabolism. Other people were so envious how effortless it is for me to lose weight. I would just eat anything my heart’s desires without the worry of getting fat.  But finally, I was able to pinpoint the primary reason why I won’t gain weight — HIV.

Here’s a side by side picture of me four years ago and a picture of me taken just a few months ago.

People just are noticing that I look thinner everyday and it’s no longer flattering. I’m even more lean now compared to my picture that I have posted. I have been taking multivitamins and have been pigging out once in a while. But these aren’t enough. I finally heeded my friends’ suggestions to enroll myself to a fitness center and start working out. Hopefully, this would help me address my weight problem. I even asked my sibling in the US to send me whey protein to aid me in improving my physique. But procrastination is getting into me again. I should have started with my program last June 1 but until now, I still can’t get myself in the mood to work-out. I need motivation.

flirty cashier…

I decided to dine at the country style concessionaire stand in our office canteen for lunch this afternoon and had a very awkward conversation with their cute cashier guy.

Me: I’ll have a sausage combo for dine-in please. and then a large kiwi-strawberry. What sausages are available?

Cashier: Sir, we have frankfurter, Hungarian sausage, Italian sausage. And I’m also available.

I was shocked with his statement! Apparently, the waitress overheard him say that and blurted out, “Bakit? Sausage ka ba?“. The cashier suddenly realized what he had just said. He smiled and turned his head down with an  expression on his face that he can’t believe he said that out aloud.

I pretended that I didn’t hear his statement and said, “I’ll get the Hungarian sausage”. I then handed him the exact amount and then got my own table. Deep inside, I was kinikilig. LOL. If I’m a flirt, I could have gotten him that instant. But I’m not. Too bad.

Here’s a map on where the H4 pavillion and SACCL are at the San Lazaro compound which I took when I got my CD4 count. I got lost the very first time I went there and I don’t want my fellow pozzies to be in the same situation that I was in — lost at the TB ward. LOL.

I don’t where exactly is Quiricada street. Usually, I park at the DOH compound in front of the NEC building (LRT entrance) and then I just take a short walk to H4 or SACCL.

Seasons of Love

Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes,
five hundred twenty-five thousand moments so dear.
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes,
how do you measure- measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets,
in midnights, in cups of coffee,
in inches, in miles,
in laughter, in strife?
In five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
how do you measure a year in the life?
How about love?
Measure in love.
Seasons of love
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes,
five hundred twenty-five thousand journeys to plan.
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes,
how do you measure the life of a woman or man?
In truths that she learned or in times that he cried?
In bridges he burned or the way that she died?
It’s time now, to sing out though the story never ends.
Let’s celebrate, remember a year in the life of friends.
Remember the love
Measure in love.
Measure, measure your life in love.
Seasons of love…